BIG DAY!

So we are 13 days away from release day for All The Difference. 
June 10th people!

Worked this morning, and even though I hit the damn email button for almost every customer (Some beat me to saying "No I don't want to sign up" or "I've already updated") my E3 decided to come up and lecture me on making sure I'm hitting the button for every customer. "because we're showing we're behind" OH yes, and it MUST be my fault. I had a nice snappy come back for her too, She tilts my customer screen up and starts to say "Just make sure you're hitting the email-"  I cut her off. "I know, I have been, every customer." She responds. "Oh because we're showing behind, I just wanted to make sure." I responded; "I have hit the button, it's not my fault we're showing behind." all passive aggressive.
As I'm leaving work, phone call from the 6 year old's school, she's running a fever and a belly ache. can I come get her? SURE! i'm heading that way anyways.  Go shopping, and then FINALLY at 4:30 I get home.  But I do'nt check my mail until like 5:30.

In the inbox I see the following:
All Cover sizes - Chivalry Isn't Dead
Author profile log in in formation Siren Book Strand
For final authorization - All The Difference. 
Cover Questionnaire - Now or Never

Holy sweet Jesus batman! 

I open the final athorization first, download.
open profile log in info, get that set up
on tenterhooks I finally open All cover sizes. Download all five. 

I want to kiss and please Harris Channing in the most dirty of ways.

How absolutely beautiful is this fricking cover?

She even PHOTOSHOPPED the model's eyes for Ace's blue contacts?! SQUEE!

I shared it everywhere, and then started in on the questionnaire and final revision.

Today was a busy afternoon!

I had a great day today because of that, Siren totally made my day. 

Next cover will be Travis and Katie

 

Annnnd then writing Mallory and Vincent who I am SO freaking excited to finally hear their voices... 

I got the personality for Makenna, Mallory's sister today, she and Joey's book is going to be SO MUCH FUN to write.  She's totally self reliant, strong, opinionated female.  He is a recovering drug addict who need someone to help him 'be a better man' 

Yup, can't WAIT!!!! these books are just all up there and their stories are begging to be told :) 

Another step taken

So I worked on information for my author page on Siren this afternoon, and sent the information just a little bit ago to the dude that's gonna put it up on the site.

Been feeling a little better today.  Had too many headaches over the course of the weekend.  I'm stressing out big time over the release.  I shouldn't stress, I really shouldn't, but I'm so nervous about so many things.  Like... Will they like it? Will they BUY it? will people like ME?! Seeing as how my books are an extension of me, it's like "Are they going to like me?"


I've watched pretty much every season to date of Red Vs Blue, my FAVORITE web series.  Finished Season 10 last night, and I was crying like a baby. Burnie Burns, Matt hullum, Miles Luna, Monty Oum, and Eddy Rivas did AMAZING on the script.  The scene with the Director, Church, and Carolina at the end had me crying so hard.

It was like, as much as you HATE the Director by then you just want a happy ending, damn it all. I"m looking forward to seeing what they did with Season 11.

Guilty pleasure what can I say? lol
I"m getting excited about this release, I really am, but I'm a bit scared as well. Anyone have any reassuring words for me? I could use every word I can get!

A bit dark tonight

I won't normally make a habit of putting out dark/emo/negative/depressing.... whatever posts, but that's about how I'm feeling tonight.

I'm an empath, a very strong empath.  I feel the emotions of those around me, and they can affect me in sometimes dangerous ways.  Talking with a friend tonight, I realized a few things about myself.

1) No matter how desperately I try I will never sever the bond created between me and my ex boyfriend (lasted all of a couple months) He and I were best friends, SO fucking close for a long time, and then we tried a relationship and it killed us. BUT that soul link is still there, we created it without even meaning to or knowing how we did it.  But it's a very real thing.  I can tell when he's hurting, when he's happy, when he's thinking about me.  tonight it's the first and last. 

2) I have my own personal demons that I'm still trying to fight off.

3) I mind walk without even realizing I'm doing it.  I project my consciousness into someone's thoughts - did it to my friend tonight, and I"m sporting a headache because of it, go me.

But back to #1. I've been feeling off all day, mostly because Mr Ashley was sending me mixed messages on going to dinner tonight. so that let my guard down a lot. Normally I have a shield around me that protects me from the ex boyfriend's projections. It's so bad tonight that his projection made me cry.  I felt this wave of grief so strong that it brought me to tears. I know he was watching Edward Scissorhands.  It's the one movie that can break him down mentally, he does it to let go of the grief.
I've tried severing the bond before, but my friend told me that won't ever happen, because the bond wasn't just emotional, it linked our souls together.  he also has his mother's shields protecting him.  I hit them when I tried breaking it, and it prevented me from severing the tie.

-- I know what some of you might be thinking, okay, she's fucking insane. No. I'm NOT. The mystical is very real, Magik is very real.  I've tapped into that side of myself, let's just agree that I believe in it, and if you don't, that's okay, you can stop reading the entry now, or skim down to the bottom. --

Now this ex doesn't even realize that the bond is still there, doesn't even realize that he's projecting so intensely, that he calls out to me and disrupts my life with his calls. A soul link... it's stronger than I had even realized before.  I will never be completely rid of him, and I hadn't before.  I've known him since 2004.  almost ten years (Met him first in July 2004) ever since that fall when we first connected that bond was created, 'cause even when I started hating him and stopped talking to him for a year and a half, I still thought about him and how he was doing.  In between 2007 and 2010 when we stopped talking again I couldn't stop thinking about him. There's a connection with him and has been for almost ten years.  We always come back to each other. ALWAYS. but this time because we shared something so intimate -- love, sex, a deep friendship -- it's run deeper, and the emotional bond has gone straight into my soul. 


Okay non believers, here's where you'll be okay to read again :P

So I woke up this morning, 5am, to a head splitting migraine.  instantly put me into the worst mood imaginable. Did NOT help that night before last, I asked Mr Ashley if we could go out to dinner tonight. I missed him and wanted to spend some time with him one on one since he's been working thirds, getting to see him is in passing. He said, you'll have to wake me up, make us reservations.  Okay! I can do that.
He gets home Friday morning from work, and then said this exact thing to me:
"I"ve gotta get up for work tonight, dinner tomorrow night, and then work again.  I can't get one day to sleep in." .....
Got it. You changed your mind but didn't want to hurt my feelings. would have been better if you would have just fucking told me that. -- BUT it's not like him to be all 'beat around the bush' so I don't know what the fuck he thought he was doing saying that shit to me.
Went to work in a bad mood, but thankfully the customers were all cool and put me in a better mood. 
Then the headache this morning, I slept until 1pm, got up, showered, and felt okay until about 5. I tried to get some stuff done around the house, did some dishes. then just started feeling these waves of ANGER I was getting so pissed.  I do'nt know WHY.... I lost my appetite trying to figure out what I wanted to eat, I was going to still wake him up and tell him "dinner or a movie?" three hours pass, I do'nt feel hungry at all. -- I've only eaten a bowl of cereal today. That's IT.
I got so upset that I felt sick when I thought about food. Felt so guilt stricken because I wanted to have a date night with my boyfriend.  I decided not to wake him up afterall.  Talked to my friend some, and while I was on the phone with my friend, Mr Ashley got up went to the bathroom, then poked his head into my son's room where I was folding his clothes, and said "I thought you were going to wake me up for dinner?" in this fucking DISAPPOINTED TONE.....
Guilt trip #2....
now here it is, ten til eleven, he's back in bed, and i"m ready to just go to sleep.  But I"m so upset, I don't want to lay down with him right now.  I need to talk to him I know I do, I just don't even know what I'd say. 
I just want him back on 2nds so I can actually see my boyfriend and have him back again.  Brian hasn't been himself in the last 5 weeks that he's been on 3rds. I don't like it.

Book 3 is a go!

I got the acceptance letter yesterday telling me that Book Three: Now Or Never in the Club Aries series is going to be released in August this year. It makes me so excited it's ridiculous. 

We're only 18 days away from All The Difference's release

39 days from Chivalry Isn't Dead.  I have first round of edits in my inbox waiting for my approval.  I need to do a full read through because I caught a couple of mistakes that the EDITOR didn't catch.  So I'm nervous and over thinking things.

I've started Once in a Lifetime, Book FOUR in the series, three pages in. lol.  But I've got a good twenty in my head waiting to be written, so it's all good. 

I started plotting out the next series I need to work on.  Book one is done already.  book two, first couple of chapters are already done as well, as well as some subsequent chapters too. 
Got to book five plotted out. so not too shabby. book three is started as well, that series has been rattling away in my head for a while.  Lots of paranormal goodness coming in the fall - early winter I hope.

I desperately need to get outside and do some gardening.  dandelions are sprouting up like crazy, and it's starting to tick me off, 'cause they're winding up around the rose bushes. the thorny, painful rose bushes.  I want to dig a couple of them up and give them to my mom.  I want some hostas the ones with the flowers.  My mom had some at the apartment/duplex we lived in when I graduated high school.  I loved those plants, they were so pretty.  that might be a splurge for my house as soon as I have some money to splurge with. 
I have bleeding hearts at the corner of the house, OH so pretty. and it's HUGE! All of these plants are kinda taking me by surprise, because it was Mr Ashley's grandma's house before she passed on in October.  we took over the place in December.  I LOVE this house.  I've seen her here too.  Her and her late husband as well.  They pop in and say hi every now and then. 
I've caught her energy on camera once.  coming out of the girl's room and heading up to the attic. I heard footsteps the first morning we were here.  Seen a mist moving from the front door toward Mr Ashley's beardie. soon as I looked at it straight on it was gone though.  Mr Ashley's seen a purple orb and the mist a couple of times, smelled his grandma's perfume too. 

You all will come to find out I firmly believe in the real paranormal.  Angels, Demons, ghosts, vampires, werewolves.  Mr Ashley has the spirit of a werewolf.  my ex husband has a demon attached to him. But that's a story for another day.  ;)

Have a good day, I'm off to do my writing thing :)

Trying to get it together.

I have edits for Chivalry Isn't Dead in my inbox. I've gotten them mostly done, but I"m waiting to send them out to do one more full read through.  I caught a spelling error that the editor didn't so now I"m worried about the more obscure errors like "he" instead of "she".  I HATE seeing that in books, and now I"m paranoid.

Today the day job was long and tedious, and right now it feels like it's 10 at night already.  The girls just got home from school about a half hour ago, and I"m just exhausted.

Still need to figure out what I'm going to make for dinner tonight, once again, not a clue. 

Need to watch Supernatural's season finale soon so I'm not spoiled. I've got it on my DVR.  I was watching Heroes of Cosplay last night, OMG Yaya Han is AMAZEBALLS.  The finale with the Alice: Madness Returns costumes was AMAZING.  Seriously impressive.  I'm totally in love with cosplayers, they're incredible with the thoughts and talent they put into their costumes.

Need to do more plotting for other series.  My Healing Springs series is book mapped.  As far as I know who is going in what order, and the BIG stuff that happens in each book.  But the little stuff needs found out. 
I need to write one book in my horror series to see if it's possible to make it an Erotica and be able to publish it through Siren. 

I"m so unbelievably tired that I'm ready for bed.  Need to do a LOT before going to bed though :(

LONG weekend

So the rain never stopped here in mid-north (My term for right up against the lake in the middle of the most northern part of the state) Ohio. I had planned to take the kids out to see Frozen at the pavillion, rained out.  Carnival at the same place saturday, rained out. 
I couldn't even really go walking because the boyfriend was so busy, and the quarry would have been muddy.

I DID however write the first paragraph for book four in the Club Aries series, and submitted Book Three. I am so very excited for this, and release day for All The Difference is only 22 days away!
The excitement is never ending it seems, and I really wouldn't have it any other way.
Coming up on the last three weeks before release day is making me antsy for book two's edits, final edits for book one, and cover reveal for book two. 
All The Difference releases June 10
Chivalry Isn't Dead releases July 1. THREE WEEKS APART.  I"m hoping to see edits for book two this week. 

I have seven.... yes SEVEN blog hops slated for the first two weeks in June.  Three in the first week, four in the second, Two on the 11th, two on the 12th.  WOW. BUT getting my name out there is good for me, so here's to a busy next three weeks!

Keep your minds naughty, and pimp me out! ;) I won't mind!

Debut post for a debut novel.

I am Jordan Ashley, author of the Club Aries series, Book one is due out June 10 with Siren Bookstrand.
I live in a tourist trap near the lake in Ohio where the winters are like a ghost town and colder than I care for, and the summers are crowded and the traffic sucks.
I"m a divorced mom of three young children, cat owner to a spoiled rotten Mainecoon, and soul mate to a self  proclaimed werewolf.  I spend most of my time devoted to them, or working to support them. As a teenager before the 'hellions' were born I found these voices in my head that just wouldn't quiet, and so began my love for writing. I listened to every work and finished my first novel before I was eighteen.  I didn't embrace my 'naughty' side until my seven year marriage, ten year relationship began to get rocky and suddenly many other options existed for my writing.
I found comfort in the new worlds that opened up before me and found an outlet in them during the harshest parts of the separation.  Now that my dream of being published has been brought to reality I cannot wait to reveal all these crazy and loveable characters to everyone, and I hope you love them as much as I do.
My passion is my writing but I also enjoy getting lost in fantastic worlds on TV. My favorites include Game of Thrones, Agents of S.H.I.EL.D., Once Upon a Time..., and Supernatural. I am inspired by people in my life and situations I or my friends find themselves in.  I also have a secret (not so secret) addiction to Facebook and coffee, which I take in 16 oz mugs.


I have many places I hang out, Facebook obviously is one of them, and while I more than likely will not accept friend requests to my personal page, I always like "Likers" on my fan page:

https://www.facebook.com/authorjordanashley

 
I am on Twitter as well, I always try to follow back, and you can find me here: https://twitter.com/JordanAshleyWat

I am on Pinterest, and post up a lot of things for my inspiration, what I imagine characters to look like, places and objects for my novels you can find me here: http://www.pinterest.com/Writermom2010/

You can email me at my personal Email:  AuthorJordanAshley@hotmail.com

and I have my own Etsy shop where I sell candles, aroma beads, and now I"m working on custom coffee mugs :)  Eventually I'm going to make jar candles inspired by my books :)   https://www.etsy.com/shop/ScarletWytchCandles